to blog.. hhehee.. cos most of the time i'm chasing prince of tennis anime online~ haha.. met up with kk, tong, jy and nic last sat for dinner at jp, lai lai stall, they've just finish renovating recently.. their noodles still not too bad, quite "Q". went for a short pool session follow by swensens earth quake ice cream.. finally there are more choices for us to choose, cos i remb everytime when i go most of the flavours they dun have lor.. and there's one flavour they always dun have (they shld have taken out that flavour) cos i went 10 times 10 times they oso dun have that flavour one lor.. *chocolate chip* ice cream haha! tho ppl may say cookies and cream is the about the same as chocolate chips, but hor.. chocolate chips is nicer than cookies and cream leh *i feel la*
tong said me and jy look more and more alike heehee.. *maybe cos of our hair style ba* cos right now my fringe quite long, so its sort of like side parting, same side parting as jy keke.. and i remb last time when we were sec one, ppl always tot both of us r sisters hehe.. maybe oso because of our size ba~ but hor.. it seems that i have that kinda "common face" leh.. cos everytime i heard ppl say i look like their who who who.. else will be ppl say i look like some celeb (but hor, diff ppl say i look like diff ppl).. or will be ppl say they saw me at this this place at this this time but hor.. i not at that place leh.. and they dun believe me.. haha.. there was once when 2 person told me they saw me on this particular day at diff place, one at jurong point another one at bugis.. but hor.. im not at that 2 place tat day tat time wor -_-"
i bought a container not long ago, intending to keep my stuff toys inside (given the fact i already had one box full and the rest are lying inside my wardrobe collecting dust).. bought the zip lock bags to keep them inside free from dust.. and i was packing and packing and i realise i had one big full box of stuff piglets!! of which 80% of them i bought myself, the rest are from friends and colleagues.. and its not finish yet, cos no place already (box is fill up to the rim), my wardrobe still have 2 big flat piglet pillow and a small bolster.. in another smaller box, i had one box full of those small piglet accessories / figurine.. hahah~ there was a period of time where piglet seems to be the IN thing cos everywhere i go sells piglet.. but now seldom see really nice one leh.. so its a gd thing for me cos i can save up more of my money.. haha.. cos basically they are just for display purposes lol..
anyway i was packing.. and i saw it.... remember the times where we were mad abt neopets? hehe.. i've got the cloud aisha plushie.. big and small version.. aisha was not my pet last time, but i saw the plushie was cute~ so i bought it lor heehee.. the cloud patch might seems ugly to some ppl.. but i like leh.. my name got cloud ma keke..
I loved all the stuff toys i own up to today.. if u tell me to gif up anyone of them, i would say "no way!" i think i will cry if my mom gave away all my soft toy.. i remb last time she did gave away some soft toys to my cousins cos suddenly i couldn't find them anymore.. and then i saw it in my granny's house! but that happens when i was still very very young, and the soft toy oso dunno from where one.. so can forget abt it.. but this time round.. no way.. cos all the soft toys is either i kiap one or buy one or from frends lor, all mean alot to me so cannot cannot cannot!! i remb i had told my mom b4 say she cannot anyhow give away my soft toy.. hehee.. just hopes she rembs else i can cry for days already.. haha!!
t certain point of times, we will particularly love wearing certain accessories or clothes.. my recent favourites ^-^
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met up with one of my poly close gal frend who came back from aussie for a short break ytd, it had been a few yrs since i last saw her.. ever since we graduate she went overseas to study, only manage to communicate tru emails and greeting cards & bday present send yearly.. we had a great dinner at the food street at chinatown, eating and chatting away.. lots and lots of things to talk abt.. and looking at her, i realise how independent she is compared to me.. really happy to see her again aft so long~ =)
sometimes, at one moment i will feel upset abt a particular thing, but then the next moment i feel alrite abt it, and there's nothing for me to be upset or broad abt.. then aft awhile if the tot comes back again, i will start to feel uncomfortable abt it (and dunno how or wat to do abt it), then the next moment i'm ok with it already.. and for certain things, i know that there's nothing to be bothered abt, and i get affected by it, and when i suddenly think tru it, i will tell myself "see, no need to get affected de ma, its nothing de lor". its weird, the feeling is weird.. i dunno wat issit, and i dunno wat i wan. its just a stupid feeling that comes and goes as it wish.. is this normal? or m i on my way to wood bridge if my stupid brain continues to function this waY...
when we always tell ppl who r troubling, "aiya.. dun think too much ya, its no use thinking one.." tho we know the fact that we can't stop our brain from thinking, we are not in the control.. our brain is the big boss.. so hey! how come is like tat? i tot we r the on who provide a living space for the brain and how come we r in their control, that dun sounds logical isn't it? without us equals to without them.. or m i wrong abt it? cos without brain, we will be dead. if the brain is dead, we can't live... so i can say that actually we r just a puppet controlled by our brain.. because scientifically, our hands legs and watever thing are all controlled by the brain.. and the brain always gets its way cos the stupid heart will feel upset when the brain can't stop thinking abt upset things isn't it?
so i guess the most powerful ppl are ppl who can control their own brain, telling them wat they shld think and wat they shld not think abt.. make gd use of it and be in control.. in this way, the life of the person will be perfect without any miseries. but this kinda ppl r very rare, and most of them who can really do it have become god.. haha..but base line is, tho its difficult to control not to think abt upset things, we shldnt let our brain have the overall control over us.. we ourselves hav to "kan4 kai1", fight against the brain, so that we will be happier with our life.. alot of ppl let themselves drowned in miseries because they have very weak "yi4 zhi4 li4", they practically let their brain do all the controlling.
met up wif JY for frog leg porridge at chinatown last fri (kk, dun be jealous ya keke..), walked ard chinatown, the decorations for the mooncake festivals are not taken out yet, so there's lotsa beautiful lanterns ard, too bad we forgot our cameras hehe.. the we ended up at the OG there, we went inside.. and then some of the lights went off.. we know its the indication that the place is closing soon, but we tot there shld be announcement one lor.. so we continue walking ard and looking at some dresses until the sales girl came over.. we were so pai seh we quickly get outta the place haha..
went to ah ma's house during the wk end cos ah gong's bday so there's a gathering and buffet ordered.. then we went over to dad's relative side (the house where my dad grew up), and he was showing us last time (i dunno when) he planted a fruit tree outside, and it had grown to quite big wor.. see the pic below, withthe sour fruit heading.. i dunno wat its call.. but its definitely not grape haha.. i still remb dad was telling us when he was young he and his friend went to catch spiders, and both accidentally fall into the drain (with all the pig shits etc..) so he had gotten all shit all over his body.. and he went home smelling and looking like a piece of shit.. haha.. and as usual he got scolded by his mom.. and there's this time where he's mom asked him to go sell ice cream, but he ended up toppling all the ice cream and ended up with another round of scolding again.. hee.. sometimes in life, luck just doesn't seems to be by our side when we needed them most..
Other than the "fruit treE" there are oso other flowers that my aunty and cousins they all planted =) very pretty! hehe.. last time there're alot of other plants there, like banana, guava, sugar cane.. but now all remove already ehhe..
went to vivo city~ shopping center was really big.. walk and walk and walk until leg pain.. most of the shops oso not ready yet.. and most of it are boutiques.. selling things pricing above average.. so there wasn't much things to buy also.. cinema is the largest cinema, but there wasn't any nice shows that interest me so didn't get to experience the cinema.. there's this sky park at the top (not shown in the picture, the pic below is outside the vivo city where we can see the sentosa from our view, notice the circle i draw in pink behind? thats a mini train leading from dunno where to sentosa that side.. didn't know where it start from and where it ends.. hehe)
with..... this! Sony DCS T-10, in pink!! saw it in the sony shop ytd.. very pretty leh!! i know its a old model.. but last time dun hav pink color leh.. else i buy already hor... im willing to sell my canon ixus i (still in very gd condition, 2 yrs old) ~ then can get this one hehe.. any lobang or trade in available hehehe? this t-10 has got 7.2 MP!! my ixus only hav 4.. muahaha.. and the LCD screen is BIG!!.. mine is so small.. it has got optical zoom.. mine only hav digital zoom.. its slim.. mine is fat and short haha.. but most impt of all its pink!! tho mine is pearl color, but i'll still choose pink if there's a choice.. unless the pink is ugly pink.. hehe.. isn't it a sweet lovely baby? hehe.. i know la.. i sounds 喜新厌旧.. i still like my canon ixus, but this looks more tempting in pink *drools*
i'll start to go dig out some photos.. collage them.. play ard.. too bad i dun hav photoshop in office.. only can use fireworks.. haha.. very limited functions.. i know i shld be doing more meaningful things like reading up some online materials or learning some new stuffs.. im too lazy na.. will do that when i hav more energy and more concentration lol.. i still remb that day when i went to bed ard 9+, toss ard till 10 like that then fall asleep woke up in the middle of the nite.. then recall abit of wat i dreamt.. got very scared.. cos i recall i was carrying a human head on my shoulder.. im helping the "person" to find someone.. in the dream, i wasn't scared at all, and it seems normal.. but when i wake up and think back.. i so scared.. haha.. then i so scared suddenly the head will appear infront of me.. so i hide myself under my blanket haha..like i say b4, i hate nightmares.. there was once i woke up and cried until i fall back to sleep because i was so scared.. haha.. silly me.. to me.. i always had bad dreams.. bad dreams in the sense that when u tell someone who is superstitious, they will say ur dream is a bad omen.. or means bad luck.. sigh.. no wonder i've always been so unlucky.. its all "written" in my dreams.. i wonder when my lucky star will be able to find me and shine on me again~
since i went shopping.. hehe.. met up with Jy on sat for some shopping in town.. she wanted to get a bag and i'm looking for a small black dress (to be prepared in case there's any formal functions, and i dun even hav any dress in my wardrobe!).. Jy didn't manage to see any bags that she like.. i saw a few dress (2 tube dress to be exact) which i quite like.. both designs are very different, one is complicated but sweet (abit of doll like dress kind) the other is simple and sweet.. both cost the same price $70 each.. but i still dunno if i shld get the dress anot (shld be settling on the simple and sweet one if i'm getting one), in dilemma.. cos right now im still saving money, plus im not sure if its really that nice.. tho Jy kept saying that its really nice keke, she'll buy if she's attending some wedding dinner or wat.. im worried i'll get the dress on impulse and regret aft tat.. keke..
anyway shopping was great even tho we did not get anything at the end of the day, cos nothing seems to catch our eyes that day.. haha (was a gd thing for me cos i shldn't be spending extra money hee..) but the haze was really bad that day.. makes me even more sleepy and tired leh, and my throat.. urgh.. very dry and uncomfortable..
Itinery for that day
took the train down to orchard with Jy- we were abit disturbed by this malay guy who played malay songs with his mp3 phone.. went ck tang basement to get some drink (fresh sugar cane juice) - really nice cos its sweet and fresh, unlike some sugar cane looks dark in color and taste unfresh hehe.. and there were quite some food there.. but too bad im not that hungry.. head down to far east plaza for some shopping.. conquered the place in abt 1hr+ to 2hr time.. hehe.. then we walk down to heeren.. and then to cine for dinner at the foodcourt.. hand-made noodle was not bad and very filling for only $3.50... hehe.. then we walked down to center point, on the way just outside cine, there's this guy who came up to us.. wana make friends.. anyway that time i was sleepy and dunno wat to say i told him "sorry, we in a hurry now.. -_-" i cant believe i said tat.. haha.. its as if he's someone trying to do survey or sell stuff on the streets" then he said only make friends.. dun needa take up alot of our time, follow by taking out his hp (hinting to gif him contact no) and i quickly said, sorry but i got bf already keke.. and he walked away.. i think this is the best answer to gif if u wana reject someone who wans ur contact =) aft that while walking to centre point, i told Jy, i shld have told him tat "if you wan my no, u hav to get permission from my girlfriend" follow by putting my hand on Jy's shoulder kekek.. wonder wat will be his reaction lol.. Jy tot this idea was damn funny too~ ^-^there wasnt much in center point other than mango shop.. we went in and browse abit.. and then headed to OG.. not much oso.. so we headed back and then get some bubbletea drink before taking bus home =) very tiring.. my legs hurt (maybe due to less shopping recently, or my shoe prob haha)
*yawnz* i dunno if it cos of the haze or watever thingy.. im not feeling well.. and i can't sleep very well.. and my head isn't functioning very well too~ its like..
i seems to have alot of things in my head.. but i dunno which thing m i thinking at that moment.. very messy.. too messy that i can't think properly.. sometimes, if we have this remote control / switch in our brain that allows us to filter away certain things (not say erase), we will still remb that particular thing, but if its able to let us filter away so that it wouldn't come back and "haunt" us, it'll be so great! hehe.. cos certain things we know that thinking too much oso can't be helped / can't solve the prob. or just that we r thinking too much thus making us paranoid..
if we can choose wat to filter, that'll be so gd! tho im consider someone who can easily filter things away (compare to normal ppl).. but in certain days these stupid crazy things just comes and haunt me.. until i can't breath.. its scary.. and i hope it goes away.. the whole body will feel uncomfortable when i try not to think (i mean real physical uncomfortable), and when i think, i will start to get crazy.. hahah~
I've got lotsa stuffed toys at home... sometimes when im packing my room, i see those soft toys, i'll wonder to myself y i love them so much; cos in the first place, they are something that are useless, waste of money and gets dirty if u dun keep them properly.. and i always tell myself, "no more soft toy from now onwards" but i always ended up getting it once in a while.. hehe.. couldn't resist the temptation cos they'll always hav that kinda "bring me home, bring me home" look.. muahaha.. and they are so cuddly that u will wana hug them *comfortable* hehee..
i really dun like dreaming (but im always dreaming when im asleep)..
me: "hey brain, y can't u just rest while im zzing?"
brain: " i can't.. cos during the day u used part of the brains while im alseep, so when u finally goes to sleep, and other part of the brain is resting, im so awake that i need to do something.."
me: "-_-""
be it a gd dream or a bad dream, i dun like.. cos it always makes me so tired when i wake up even if i've slept more than 8hrs~ furthermore.. so wat if its a gd dream? its just a dream.. its not real.. *so back to reality* hehe.. then if its a bad dream, its even worse, makes one moody and upset.. i may as well dun wan a dream.. but i can't choose.. the dream just came by itself.. and stays till i wake up.. tho i dun like dreams.. i like day-dreaming.. hehhe.. building castles in the air.. keke.. i know its similar to having a gd dream cos its still not th reality.. but at least in this situation i know im dreaming.. but in the dreams, u wouldn't know u r dreaming.. and when u wake up.. u get disappointed because its not real~ hehe.. but i dun deny the fact that gd dreams will actually brighten up ur day when u wake up =)
last time.. i dun keep track of how much i spend per mth.. and even if i overshot a little, i dun really care~ but recently.. i realised that actually my monthly salary doesn't really allows me to spend extra (eg. shopping), after giving my mom the household allowance, paying my sch fees "debt", paying my internet bill, phone bill.. im only left abt half of the salary where i hav to spend for my transport and food and wk end spending.. it'll be a BIG smile if i dun overspend.. heehe.. i've cut down alot of shopping and costly food~ wk day lunch in office oso choose to eat foodcourt everyday (instead of cafe la, taking cab down to jp for lunch la) just to make sure i dun overspend hehe.. im someone who wouldn't say i dun hav money etc.. but please bear with me if i say i no money and wana eat cheap cheap to save money ya =) cos im not trying to be stingy.. i just wana make sure i dun over spend ^-^
i still remb last time when i was still having attachment, my pay was only $400, and there was this sars period where im not allowed to go anywhere (everyday aft work is home), wk end oso seldom go out.. hey, that time i still manage to save up money leh with so little pay.. but now everything oso need money and money.. haiz.. everything is increasing its value and prices.. but it just seems my pay is still stuck at the same place.. imagine having everything increasing its value and the pay still remains? one fine day, we will surely become really poor, other than no savings, our monthly expenses oso have prob already.. but this is a society where the rich gets richer and the poor gets poorer, because those top management will always use excuses like the company not earning money so no pay increment/bonus.. so where do all the money go? into their pocket~
humans are greedy animals.. they dun get contented.. they just wan for more.. but but but.. im not human, im a pig hahaha.. i'll be contented if u provide me with 3 meals and a warm place to sleep =) even tho one day i'll be "slaughter", isn't it abt the same as human beings (old and die).. but at least i've lived a stressed-free life, enjoying myself while other ppl are fighting and back stabbing each other just to get wat they wanted.. i just wana live a care-free life..
As
shown in the above pic, I'm someone similar to a pig, eats alot and sleeps
alot. Eating and sleeping are my favourite past time and its very important
to me also! Looking at the wings and wondering, "do pigs fly?"
well pigs dun fly but Iwan to fly! Fly away to any place I wan, freedom!
i bought a container not long ago, intending to keep my stuff toys inside (given the fact i already had one box full and the rest are lying inside my wardrobe collecting dust).. bought the zip lock bags to keep them inside free from dust.. and i was packing and packing and i realise i had one big full box of stuff piglets!! of which 80% of them i bought myself, the rest are from friends and colleagues.. and its not finish yet, cos no place already (box is fill up to the rim), my wardrobe still have 2 big flat piglet pillow and a small bolster.. in another smaller box, i had one box full of those small piglet accessories / figurine.. hahah~ there was a period of time where piglet seems to be the IN thing cos everywhere i go sells piglet.. but now seldom see really nice one leh.. so its a gd thing for me cos i can save up more of my money.. haha.. cos basically they are just for display purposes lol..
